So like, over time, Devit realized he was actually enjoying these conversations, even though it was mostly bickering! And Hakuren was still doing the "YOU LIIIIIKE ME~" thing, and it was even more annoying because NOW it was true! And Devit's STILL NOT SURE how that happened, actually. He blames Hakuren for it |D he's like "If you hadn't kept fucking SAYING IT like that, I never would have liked you!" Somehow Hakuren DID THIS to him with the power of his words! Devit really doesn't want to admit that Hakuren "won," which is why he's so reticent to admit to anyone that he likes Hakuren or that they're friends. Like, with Mika? He is really open about "You make me feel good to be around, I like you a lot, we're friends, yay!" And in general, that's how Devit is, on the very rare occasion that he makes a friend and is comfy with them. But with Hakuren he's like "Dammit . . . that stupid prissy priest won >( I'm gonna keep denying it!"
HE KNOWS HAKUREN KNOWS, THOUGH. That Devit considers him a friend, anyway. Devit is funny because he gets pissed when he's called on things, but he also gets REALLY CONFUSED when he's not. Like if he tells someone "I DON'T HAVE A CRUSH ON MICHAEL!" and they believe him, he goes all like "Wait what huh whu?!?!?" Because he just assumes people can see through his lies. He hates it, but he assumes it's true. So he just kinda assumes that Hakuren understands that they ARE friends, that he IS lonely, that he DOES want friends even though he feels he shouldn't, and so on. But he doesn't want to say it. This is why he won't explain "dibs"--well, that and the fact that he's totally confused himself about the dibs thing anyway, like, it's supposed to mean "prey," but REALLY it means "I'd destroy anyone who touched them," and that's not supposed to be AN ISSUE unless it's because he wants to kill them first! But in Hakuren's case, he doesn't want to kill him, much. I say much because in a very very small way that he hardly thinks about, Devit wants to kill everyone he loves, because the Bonds should be alone, and also because APPARENTLY killing the person you love is the first thing a Noah's instinct forces them to do when they awaken |D thanks recent canon! And those feelings still live inside him. But he doesn't actually WANT TO DO IT, and yes, he would be extremely upset if Hakuren ever died and he would completely end whomever was responsible.
BECAUSE, LIKE . . . like I said, he found Hakuren interesting, easy to talk to, worthy of A LITTLE RESPECT for a human, and yeah he still wanted to knock him down a peg or five just because it would feel good.
(Incidentally, as a side note, I should mention that every time this happens, Devit becomes more physically affectionate. YOU MAY HAVE NOTICED THIS. At first Devit wouldn't touch Hakuren much other than in sort of mean ways, like pulling his hair. Then the cabin thread happened and Hakuren was pissed and screaming at Shuri and acting like a child, and Devit started draping on him just a little bit, lightly, because in Devit's mind that incident knocked him off his pedestal a little. Then he found out Hakuren liked someone, and he started hanging off of him more and messing with his hair. Then the mistletoe happened and Devit thought it was SO FUNNY how awkward and bad Hakuren was that he kind of attacked him in the subsequent thread and messed up his hair and then brushed it out for him again, and since then he hangs all over him. THIS PROGRESSION HAS ACTUALLY HAPPENED IN A DEVIT-LOGICAL WAY, OKAY. He gets rapier every time Hakuren does something . . . cute, for lack of a better word, although Devit would say "retarded" and not admit that "cute" was what he was thinking.)
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HE KNOWS HAKUREN KNOWS, THOUGH. That Devit considers him a friend, anyway. Devit is funny because he gets pissed when he's called on things, but he also gets REALLY CONFUSED when he's not. Like if he tells someone "I DON'T HAVE A CRUSH ON MICHAEL!" and they believe him, he goes all like "Wait what huh whu?!?!?" Because he just assumes people can see through his lies. He hates it, but he assumes it's true. So he just kinda assumes that Hakuren understands that they ARE friends, that he IS lonely, that he DOES want friends even though he feels he shouldn't, and so on. But he doesn't want to say it. This is why he won't explain "dibs"--well, that and the fact that he's totally confused himself about the dibs thing anyway, like, it's supposed to mean "prey," but REALLY it means "I'd destroy anyone who touched them," and that's not supposed to be AN ISSUE unless it's because he wants to kill them first! But in Hakuren's case, he doesn't want to kill him, much. I say much because in a very very small way that he hardly thinks about, Devit wants to kill everyone he loves, because the Bonds should be alone, and also because APPARENTLY killing the person you love is the first thing a Noah's instinct forces them to do when they awaken |D thanks recent canon! And those feelings still live inside him. But he doesn't actually WANT TO DO IT, and yes, he would be extremely upset if Hakuren ever died and he would completely end whomever was responsible.
BECAUSE, LIKE . . . like I said, he found Hakuren interesting, easy to talk to, worthy of A LITTLE RESPECT for a human, and yeah he still wanted to knock him down a peg or five just because it would feel good.
(Incidentally, as a side note, I should mention that every time this happens, Devit becomes more physically affectionate. YOU MAY HAVE NOTICED THIS. At first Devit wouldn't touch Hakuren much other than in sort of mean ways, like pulling his hair. Then the cabin thread happened and Hakuren was pissed and screaming at Shuri and acting like a child, and Devit started draping on him just a little bit, lightly, because in Devit's mind that incident knocked him off his pedestal a little. Then he found out Hakuren liked someone, and he started hanging off of him more and messing with his hair. Then the mistletoe happened and Devit thought it was SO FUNNY how awkward and bad Hakuren was that he kind of attacked him in the subsequent thread and messed up his hair and then brushed it out for him again, and since then he hangs all over him. THIS PROGRESSION HAS ACTUALLY HAPPENED IN A DEVIT-LOGICAL WAY, OKAY. He gets rapier every time Hakuren does something . . . cute, for lack of a better word, although Devit would say "retarded" and not admit that "cute" was what he was thinking.)
That was a tangent. ANYWAY.