ITP: MOST AWKWARD NOAH

[halfcocked]

[later that evening, someone is looking for Jasdero]

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Dero won't talk about it again. Dero doesn't want Devit to be weirded out. Hee!!

[halfcocked.livejournal.com]

[that got the point across . . . ]

It's fine, it's fine! I asked! I was curious! But now I know!

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Devit knows... Hee!!

...Dero didn't mean to like him.

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--I know. I'm not mad at you.

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Dero is glad. Dero worries. Hee!!

[halfcocked.livejournal.com]

Oi, don't worry about that! You worry too much! I'm not ever gonna stop being okay with you. We're the Bonds, that's beyond everything!

[stitched-gold.livejournal.com]

Dero can't help it. But Dero will try not to worry anymore! Hee!!

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[leaning!] It's cool, it's cool! Just remember who we are!

[stitched-gold.livejournal.com]

[Not really leaning much at the moment, he still feels dirty.] Dero will remember! Hee!!

[halfcocked.livejournal.com]

. . . What's wrong? You mad at me?

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...Dero isn't mad. Dero just doesn't feel right. Hee!!

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Ehhh, you sick? What's up?

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Dero liked things better before Dero started feeling like this. Hee!!

[halfcocked.livejournal.com]

Oh . . . you mean, uh, the sex stuff?

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...Dero isn't used to liking anyone but Devit. Then Dero liked some people. Then Dero liked someone in another way. And Dero doesn't like it at all! Hee!!

[halfcocked.livejournal.com]

. . . It's okay. I know what you mean! That--that's how it was for me! And it was hard! And sometimes I still feel weird! But--I think it's better too!

[stitched-gold.livejournal.com]

Dero doesn't want to be this way! Dero wants to go back, when Dero only liked Devit. When it was just Jasdevi! Hee!! But Dero can't go back. So Dero has to learn. [Huffs a little.] But Dero doesn't hate things. Not like he did. Even if camp is stupid. So stupid! Hee!!

[halfcocked.livejournal.com]

We can't go back. . . . You don't? You don't hate things? I'm glad! I still feel real bad that we can't go back to that! It's my fault! I mean it's camp's fault mostly but I was weak!

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Not like Dero used to. Dero hated camp, and... And people! And still hates camp! Hee!! But it's camp's fault. Just camp's fault. Not Devit's!

[halfcocked.livejournal.com]

Then it's not your fault either, so don't feel bad! We just have to deal with it. Shit changes, I guess. It's hard. It's hard, and no one understands . . .

[stitched-gold.livejournal.com]

Deal with it! Hee!! Dero wants it to be easier... [Leaning against now.]

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No shit . . . but at least we're together? [leans back!]

[stitched-gold.livejournal.com]

Together! Hee!! As long as Jasdevi is together, then it's okay.

[halfcocked.livejournal.com]

Yeah, exactly. . . . You know, shit's not as bad as it could be.

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Could be worse! Hee!! [They could be apart.]