IC CONTINUATIONS STUFF

[halfcocked]

[since my other two continuation posts are like 1000 comments each let's make a new one]

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[halfcocked.livejournal.com]

But more of 'em than back home! The only thing that sucks is it's harder to avoid assholes here 'cuz you live with them, and we can't just kill anyone off.

[a-holy-oak.livejournal.com]

Killing them is not the way to deal with people, you know.

[halfcocked.livejournal.com]

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[a-holy-oak.livejournal.com]

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[halfcocked.livejournal.com]

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[a-holy-oak.livejournal.com]

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[halfcocked.livejournal.com]

. . .

[sighs and shifts away, flopping on his back on the bed]

[a-holy-oak.livejournal.com]

... what?

[halfcocked.livejournal.com]

Look! You're mad! Well what do I do? I thought if I didn't say anything maybe we wouldn't have a fight! But that didn't work either! [rubs at his face]

[a-holy-oak.livejournal.com]

I'm not mad, Devit. I just disagree with you.

[halfcocked.livejournal.com]

I know! It's not like I expect you to agree! But--I'm not gonna get into it--this is all . . . [waves his hands, agitated]

[a-holy-oak.livejournal.com]

... what are you getting all upset about?

[halfcocked.livejournal.com]

. . . Every time it comes up I feel like that's the time you're gonna dump me. I'm not gonna change or lie about it, 'cuz I'm not wrong. . . . But I don't like talking about it with you because I know you'll hate me for it later . . . I said I don't worry about it that much anymore, which is true! I don't! But when we talk about it--I feel like it's reminding you what you're going out with . . .

[a-holy-oak.livejournal.com]

... you also said that you liked that I actually knew about who and what you are, though. You can't have it both ways--I've known, and I haven't left you yet, have I?

[halfcocked.livejournal.com]

I know! I do! That's why I can trust you! That's why I don't lie about it! But that doesn't mean I don't wonder sometimes! . . . No . . .

[a-holy-oak.livejournal.com]

So have some faith in me on this, all right? If it happens, it happens--but talking isn't going to make it happen.

[halfcocked.livejournal.com]

. . . Yeah, okay. Okay . . . uh . . .

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. . . Sorry.

[a-holy-oak.livejournal.com]

...

[reaches down to touch Devit's elbow gently]

It's all right.

[halfcocked.livejournal.com]

[makes a bit of a pouty face at, but relaxes all the same]

I just dunno how long we can do this. --But I want it to be a long time! Okay?? No breaking up with me!

[a-holy-oak.livejournal.com]

You give out a lot of mixed messages, you know.

[halfcocked.livejournal.com]

I do?

[a-holy-oak.livejournal.com]

You bring up your own doubts, saying you don't think this will last, almost like you want me to take you up on that--and in the same breath you insist you don't want to.

[halfcocked.livejournal.com]

I don't! I don't! . . . It's complicated . . . isn't it gonna be worse the longer we're together? Isn't it gonna hurt more if it happens? But that doesn't mean I want it! That doesn't mean I'd let you! I just know how it's gonna feel.

[a-holy-oak.livejournal.com]

It could end peacefully, you know.

[halfcocked.livejournal.com]

Peacefully?