OH LOOK IT'S DRAMARAMA

[halfcocked]

[which is to say that there isn't any period, for Devit, of wondering why Jasdero's not in bed with him. he can feel it as soon as he wakes up.

after crying it out some, stumbling his way towards the Churchshack. still crying it out, though.]


(( JOURNAL STUFF FOR FALLOUT FROM JASDERO LEAVING GOES HERE. open to anyone! COME SEE THE CRYING NOAH ))

Comments

[halfcocked.livejournal.com]

I know. But it feels kinda close.

[a-holy-oak.livejournal.com]

At least we'll know if we can live together, after this.

[halfcocked.livejournal.com]

We'll be fine! I'll be good.

. . . Thanks.

[a-holy-oak.livejournal.com]

It's not a problem.

[halfcocked.livejournal.com]

I mean--I feel better . . . I don't feel okay, but I feel better.

[a-holy-oak.livejournal.com]

Better is good.

[halfcocked.livejournal.com]

[touching Hakuren's hair with his fingers]

. . . I don't remember right now what good feels like . . . but I know I will.

[a-holy-oak.livejournal.com]

[studying his face]

Mm. As long as you remember that--even if it's difficult now, you'll be fine.

[halfcocked.livejournal.com]

[looks very tired still, but not completely miserable]

I just feel like . . . I dunno. Part of me feels crazy, like I wanna go bust some skulls, and part of me just feels numb, and part of me feels sick. And then there's this part of me that feels like, like I need to get shit done and be responsible, like figure out what to do with all the animals and let his friends know and move in here and . . . all that stuff . . . it feels like I should be doing that stuff but I just wanna cry.

[a-holy-oak.livejournal.com]

[gently] That sort of thing can wait until tomorrow, I think. They'll be fine for a night, and your things as well. Right now, the important thing to do is rest.

[halfcocked.livejournal.com]

Yeah . . . uh, can I get some water . . .

[a-holy-oak.livejournal.com]

Of course--one moment, I'll get it.

[halfcocked.livejournal.com]

Thanks . . . [rolling over, watching him]

[a-holy-oak.livejournal.com]

[getting up, leaving the room]

[halfcocked.livejournal.com]

[BEDFLOP!]

[a-holy-oak.livejournal.com]

[RETURNING! a short time later with a glass of water]

[halfcocked.livejournal.com]

Thanks, Hakuren . . .

[reaching for it]

[a-holy-oak.livejournal.com]

[sitting beside him, handing him the cup]

[halfcocked.livejournal.com]

[sitting up and curling up against him, drinking slowly]

Last time I wanted to die.

[a-holy-oak.livejournal.com]

[watching him]

And right now?

[halfcocked.livejournal.com]

. . . I don't. I just wanna feel better. But I don't wish I were dead.

[a-holy-oak.livejournal.com]

I'm glad for that, at least.

[halfcocked.livejournal.com]

Thanks . . . for all this.

[a-holy-oak.livejournal.com]

I'm just happy if you're feeling better.

[halfcocked.livejournal.com]

It's hard to even tell when I feel so bad. But I'm glad you're here . . .