OH LOOK IT'S DRAMARAMA

[halfcocked]

[which is to say that there isn't any period, for Devit, of wondering why Jasdero's not in bed with him. he can feel it as soon as he wakes up.

after crying it out some, stumbling his way towards the Churchshack. still crying it out, though.]


(( JOURNAL STUFF FOR FALLOUT FROM JASDERO LEAVING GOES HERE. open to anyone! COME SEE THE CRYING NOAH ))

Comments

[a-holy-oak.livejournal.com]

I know. I'm sorry.

[halfcocked.livejournal.com]

I can't stop it . . . I just feel . . . all messed up inside. Sometimes I feel like it's not as bad as it was the first two times but that kinda makes me feel worse, you know?

[a-holy-oak.livejournal.com]

You're getting used to it. I wish you didn't need to develop that, though.

[halfcocked.livejournal.com]

I can't--I don't wanna get used to it, isn't that wrong!?

[a-holy-oak.livejournal.com]

No one ever does, I think. But that's part of human nature.

[halfcocked.livejournal.com]

Me and Jasdero aren't anything like humans in the Bonds part.

[a-holy-oak.livejournal.com]

It's not just that part of you that's missing him, though.

[halfcocked.livejournal.com]

. . . No.

[a-holy-oak.livejournal.com]

[petting his hair again, slowly] So it's only natural to feel this way.

[halfcocked.livejournal.com]

I just . . . he'll be back, right? It hurts. It hurts and I'm used to it but I forgot how much.

[a-holy-oak.livejournal.com]

I can't say for certain--but I know you'll see him again.

[halfcocked.livejournal.com]

He has to so we can go home with you.

[a-holy-oak.livejournal.com]

... mmmmm.

[halfcocked.livejournal.com]

He has to, Hakuren.

[burrowing in closer] Touch me . . .

[a-holy-oak.livejournal.com]

I thought I was--?

[still petting his hair]

[halfcocked.livejournal.com]

More-- [crawling into his lap, not quite sexually, but not entirely platonically either]

I just, I wanna be close, really close.

[a-holy-oak.livejournal.com]

[a little taken aback, but not pushing him off]

Devit--

[halfcocked.livejournal.com]

Just like this, I'm not doing anything.

[a-holy-oak.livejournal.com]

[a little unsure, but holding him loosely]

... All right.

[halfcocked.livejournal.com]

[clinging harder, burrowing in as close as he can] It feels better if we're like this . . .

[a-holy-oak.livejournal.com]

[just rubs his back a little, quietly]

[halfcocked.livejournal.com]

What do I do now?

[a-holy-oak.livejournal.com]

Try to get some rest, if you can.

[halfcocked.livejournal.com]

You gonna stay? Please?

[a-holy-oak.livejournal.com]

I already promised, didn't I?